"Stay" lyrics

I wish you could stay
But I know that you won't
You could leave any day
I think I'm losing hope

I wish you would stay
Until we fade away to nothingness
It's funny how these moments that we're passing don't mean nothing yet
Until 'til we stop to think about the little things we love it when
It interrupts the silence in between all of this running yet
We never tell each other that we care or that it matters
But girl if I lost you I'd promise that my world'd be shattered
I love you past the moon and back, might take a trip to Saturn
But that still never stops me from these self-destructive patterns

I told you that I wouldn't
But I still went and did it
So committed to this image
In my head it's hard to pivot
I wonder if I'll change
One day won't be the same
Maybe we could make it work if only I could find a way
From all these never-ending days
That never seem to differ
Only lap until they fade
Feel like I'ma go insane
From these patterns in my life that I could never seem to change
And my brain stays the same
No matter what I say
It gets exhausting

And I noticed what it cost me
This life without you sucks and I wish I ain't feel this often
I see you happy now, living life, I'm just an option
And I'm really happy for you - I just wish I wasn't haunted