"Cannon Fodder" lyrics

You said enough
To seal me off
I'm piling up
The negatives approaching in
When you're out on your own inside
Dancing in the dead of night
Will you honor your offer like
I would have honored the way you breathe me in?

You never fail to find the flaws in me
You're right
No one said I'd sing songs of solace and so what?
I'm better off with less in front of me
So long as I can keep the past inside this cage for now
The chemicals releasing
These chemicals don't fucking release me now

And it's excessive how
I keep you above them all
As if the rest were all
Lesser versions, bound to flaw
Lesser words have entered thoughts
Call me an ingrate
I could be the worst of all
I could be dead weight

You never fail to find the flaws in me
You're right
No one said I'd sing songs of solace and so what?
I'm better off with less in front of me
So long as I can keep the past inside this cage for now

For now I wonder without you beneath my wing
I wear your weathered emotions within me
Bring every opposed entry, exit across the way
For now, my friends don't believe me, that I'm okay
My friends don't believe me, that I'm okay
My friends don't believe me, that I'm okay
My friends don't believe me, that I'm okay
I don't believe myself

But I blame myself
The chemicals release
I blame myself for this
I'll blame myself again
I'll wipe you out of my memories
Your face, I can't forget or flee
You follow me
Your haunting gaze
It tears at the fabric of my being
Happiness, I won't attain at all
I burned my bridges as if I intended their fall