"Capsized" lyrics

Falling fast I get smacked by the concrete
Knees scraped while I get to spittin' out teeth
Heart broke but it been like that since 17
I been getting pretty used to pouring kerosene
Over everything just to get me through the storm
That's what you do when there's nobody to keep you warm
Know I been a shelter to too many who can't do the same
Take take take from my fire till they kill my flame
Stay stay stay all I wanted anyone to do
Play play play with my heart I think I'm overdue
For someone who love me as completely as I tend to do
I get thinking bout it round the hours between 10 and 2
Wrong place wrong time who am I supposed to find
I thought it was you but you showed me you were never mine
Everything was not enough
I still got a heart but the cracks started adding up

I just wanna know how
I just wanna know how
You could take someone who just lifts up
And decide you could let them down
I just wanna know how
I just wanna know how
How you look in my eyes watch the ship capsize
And decide you can let me drown
I just wanna know how
I just wanna know how
I just wanna know

How you gonna treat me like the only one
Turn around and leave me like I never was
Tell me that you need me when you had nobody else
I'm a human not a toy you get to put back on the shelf
It's my own fault I know where I tend to look for love
It's a hell that I'm acquainted with I love it like a drug
Gonna kill me and I know it but it turned me to a poet
Water works in my eyes but it gets the music flowing

I look for light
In the darkest places
And I lose my light
To the darkest spaces

Always see the good in people who won't ever do the same
Fall in love with filling cracks like Kintsugi was a game
I go all against my logic I'm a "Sucker for the pain"
Must be something from my childhood I feel it in my veins
When I'm chasing after something that ain't easy to attain
Probably why I'm making music I'ma sucker for the chase
Always running after goals that aren't ready for the race
Think I'm running towards love but I'm running in place

I just wanna know how
I just wanna know how
You could take someone who just lifts up
And decide you could let them down
I just wanna know how
I just wanna know how
How you look in my eyes watch the ship capsize
And decide you can let me drown
I just wanna know how
I just wanna know how
I just wanna know

Oh I just wanna know
Oh I just wanna know
Oh I just wanna know
Oh I just wanna know
Oh I just wanna know