"Wide Awake" lyrics

I wake up the same way every morning
Three minutes before the alarm
Like clockwork, persuading myself to just ignore
What I'm afraid of, all the talking in my head
All the words that I wish I would've said
Every line keeps highlighting mistakes, I'm tired of it

But you keep me awake
Because your voice rang louder than the pain
Don't focus on who to blame or waste the light in my day
I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake

And I saw it, a version of who I used to be
Wide-eyed with undying belief
Now I'm black and blue, and I fell asleep
But I'm so grateful that life is always knocking on the door
When I'm not scared, replacing windows with bars
Try to drown inside the sorrow till I sleep, that was never me

But you keep me awake
Because your voice rang louder than the pain
Don't focus on who to blame or waste the light in my day
I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake
I'm wide awake

I wake up the same way every morning
Three minutes before the alarm