"Bad Dream" lyrics

Is this a bad dream
'Cause something's missing?
I've been thinking some bad things
I've exhausted every way
I try and nothing change
Let it cycle. Now, I'm back
Another bottle to the face

Now, I'm gonna break
Been spiraling away
I'm tired of the chase
So, why am I still awake?

I don't wanna feel this
I'm out of other ways
I don't wanna sleep just to fight another day
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy
Wait until I'm happy

I don't wanna feel this
I'm out of other ways
I've been cycling through demons
Which one I got today?
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy
Wait until I'm happy

Why is my past always present?
I thought I'd move forward
So, how's it so heavy?
Made my mistakes
Was forgiven, but none of it left
Every foot I've been stepping is dragging along
All the weight I let build in my heart and my soul
It won't let me forget it
So, silently I've been confiding in anything promising me to correct it
It's all been lies
'Cause the change not coming
Tricked me and my mind 'til I realized something
I continue chasing highs climbing these false summits
What'll happen every time?
I'm 'a watch it all plummet
And I'm tired of the fall
Tryna turn a new leaf
Mindset gotta change to let go of these problems
So, I can meet the new me

But I've exhausted every way
I try and nothing change
Let it cycle. Now, I'm back
Another bottle to the face

Now, I'm gonna break
Been spiraling away
I'm tired of the chase
So, why am I still awake?

I don't wanna feel this
I'm out of other ways
I don't wanna sleep just to fight another day
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy
Wait until I'm happy

I don't wanna feel this
I'm out of other ways
I've been cycling through demons
Which one I got today?
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy
Wait until I'm happy