"how to swim" lyrics

Damn I swore I knew me
Then I had to go and knock on that door
Tripping through the corners
Of my heart I did my best to ignore

I might not have been brave
If I woulda known
But I opened the floodgates
Now I can't make em close

I'm out in the deep end
Tryin to catch my breath
Feeling starts to sink in
I'm in over my head
Don't know what I was thinking
The day I dove in
Oh am I drowning
Or am I learning how to swim?

Tell me it gets better
That eventually
I'll find me again
Or at least I wanna know that
The new me and the old me can stay friends
No going back now
Can't unsee myself
I think it's a good thing
But it's so hard to tell

Cause I'm out in the deep end
Tryin to catch my breath
Feeling starts to sink in
I'm in over my head
Don't know what I was thinking
The day I dove in
Oh am I drowning
Or am I learning how to swim?

Oh

Yeah It's fire burning in your lungs
It's feeling everything at once
But you can't see how far you've come

When you're out in the deep end
Tryin to catch your breath
Feeling starts to sink in
You're in over your head
All that you can see is the waves and the wind
You could be drowning
Oh but I doubt it

I've found a strong in me
That I had never met
The current I was fighting
Hasn't killed me yet
I'm closer to the shore
Than I've ever been
Thought I was drowning
Turns out I was learning
How to swim