"I Had A Life" lyrics

I tend to find it easier to lie
And never show you what I'm really like
But every now and then I notice I am so exhausted hiding it
Cos that's the thing about my secret life
The good things and the bad get intertwined
I can't tell you all the parts I like without telling you everything

And I never know how you're going to react
My heart is in my hands, then here it goes
I just needed to tell you something
I just needed to tell you something

I had a life
Before the one you know
I hope you understand why I didn't tell you so
I'm trying to ignore my instincts
I had a life
Nearly ten years ago
I left it in the past but it never really goes
I get it if you want to keep your distance
And thank you so much for listening

I wonder if I'll always feel ashamed
What if you never look at me the same
I know I only have myself to blame for behaving the way I did
And how will I know who will understand
And who will say it's fine, then throw it back
And join the list of critics that I have forever waiting in the wings

Because I never know how you're going to react
My heart is in my hands so here it goes
I just needed to tell you something
I just needed to tell you something

I had a life
Before the one you know
I hope you understand why I didn't tell you so
I'm trying to ignore my instincts
I had a life
Nearly ten years ago
I left it in the past but it never really goes
I get it if you want to keep your distance
I get it if you want to keep your distance
And thank you so much for listening