"different now" lyrics

You've been going out at night
I'm out of sight and out of mind
You've never really been the type
But I guess things are different now

How am I supposed to feel?
I get the point, I know the deal
This might be the way you heal
But God, you're just so different now

Making up shit in my head
I've been telling myself that you're still all upset
I almost wish you the best
But I mostly hope you're a wreck

I've been telling whiter lies in hopes that I can sleep at night
And this regret eats me alive!
But maybe things are better now

Honestly I'm sick of this
I'm acting like a hypocrite
You know that I'm full of shit
Pretending things are better now

What a waste of time

Making up shit in my head
I've been telling myself that you wish I was dead
I almost wish you the best
Won't you tell me you miss me instead?

I hate myself for what I've done
Hate seeing that you're moving on
Relearning lessons I forgot
Different 'cause you might be the one
Been screaming "sorrys" in my mind
I wish I realized it in time
I'll sit with my unanswered whys
And cope with knowing you're not mine

You've been going out at night
I'm out of sight and out of mind
You've never really been the type
But I guess things are different now