"lie alone" lyrics

I'm a bad liar, you don't seem to care
I think you like I'm sayin' what you wanna hear
I'm almost convinced this comes naturally to me
But when I close my eyes, it almost feels like him in between

You touch me like I'm yours, and I guess I am
How do I explain I'm meltin' in your hands?
Your name in my mouth, guilty aftertaste
I'm chokin' on the words I almost wanna say

It almost feels wrong
But I, I'm holdin' on for the life of me
'Cause I can't kiss a memory
So I'd rather lie with you than lie alone
I can't lose another piece of me, so I
I keep on sayin' things I never mean
Whether you believe me or you don't
Think I'd rather lie to you than lie alone

Take me to the river, wash the shame away
I'm turnin' into somethin' that I used to hate
I don't like the feelin', but I feel it anyway
It never goes away, all losin' sleep about him
Dance around it, lie awake hearin' the sound of you askin'
Don't you love me? Do you want him or not?
Tell me, baby, and be honest to god
If I spit out every word that I thought, you'd already be long gone

So I'm holdin' on for the life of me
'Cause I can't kiss a memory
So I'd rather lie with you than lie alone
I can't lose another piece of me, so I
I keep on sayin' things I never mean
Whether you believe me or you don't
Think I'd rather lie to you than lie alone
Just can't let you go

Don't you love me? Do you want me or not?
(I do, I don't, I will, I won't)
Tell me, baby, and be honest to god
(I will, I won't, I won't, I won't)Don't you love me? Do you want me or not?
(I do, I don't, I will, I won't)
Tell me, baby, and be honest to god
(I will, I won't, I won't, I won't)

So I'm holdin' on for the life of me
'Cause I can't kiss a memory
And I'd rather lie with you than lie alone
Yeah, I'd rather lie to you than lie alone