"bloodstream" lyrics

Maybe I was too young to fully understand
That's why I never healed from it healthy, why I never trusted a man
You gotta love the way you have, and I'll take that to my grave
Soon you'll open up your eyes, and it'll all be gone one day
And I'm sitting here convincing you to pick up the phone and call
I am my father's daughter, but I'm nothing like him at all
I hear him in the way I speak, and when I look in the mirror
The anger's grown in me and shows, could it be any clearer?
That I'm like him 'cause he made me the way I am
When we're fighting, and all I need is somebody

And I'm crying on my mama's floor, why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying, "I hear you, and I love you, but my heart, it hurts for you
And I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough? 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees, praying to God you talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind
And far out of my bloodstream

You never laid your hands on me
And that's something I'm grateful for
But I should've known that you'd gone mad
When I saw the way you punched your doors
And I don't regret loving you 'cause I know that you needed it
But the way you treated me made me feel like a little kid
And something deep inside of me tells me that you're not better now
And I'm sorry that I couldn't help, but I'm so glad I made it out

And I'm crying on my mama's floor, why don't you want this anymore?
And I'm craving you to change for me
You're saying, "I hear you, and I love you, but my heart, it hurts for you
And I just cannot give you what you need"
Am I too much? Am I enough? 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up
Now I'm numb on my knees, praying to God you talk to me
Wondering what it takes for you to stay off my mind
And far out of my bloodstream