"Pushing" lyrics

I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life
I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life

For someone to see right through
All the false alarms I pull
For someone to stand their ground
When I start to tear them down
For someone to outlast
The hold ups that hold me back
For someone to make it past
The guards of a cynical heart, si-singing out

Oh, I always jump ship
But we are closer than I've ever been
I say we stay in the fire
And hope we can burn our way out
The road to my heart gets hot as hell

I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life
I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life

For someone to call me out
When I start to run my mouth
For someone to talk me down
Off ledges that I have found
For someone to hold me close
When I'm screaming to let go
For someone to make it past
The guards of a cynical heart, si-singing out

Oh, I always jump ship
But we are closer than I've ever been
I say we stay in the fire
And hope we can burn our way out
The road to my heart gets hot as hell
I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life
I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life

I know that it's not fair
To think that you'll still be there
I know that it's not fair
But if you leave well the pattern repeats
I'm pushing you away but that's not what I mean
Oh, I'm ashamed and I cannot believe
That this is what it take just to get close to me
Is this what it takes just to get close to me
Oh, I always jump ship
But we are closer than I've ever been

Oh, I always jump ship
But we are closer than I've ever been
I say we stay in the fire
And hope we can burn our way out
The road to my heart gets hot as hell

I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life
I've been pushing all my life, all my life, all my life
I've been pushing all my life