"Smiling Out Of Habit" lyrics

Stuck in my head and I'm starting to think that I'm hopeless
I can't catch my breath and I'm praying that no one will notice

I try to be fine
They say it comes with time, so why am I wasting mine?
Where is the end of the line?

Chasing every high since I've been feeling low
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals
I think I'm headed for an overdose
I don't want to believe it, I don't want to feel this

I spend too much of my time overthinking everything
Lie awake at night, it starts sinking in
And I know I'm only making fiction
But the sadness has been creeping in

I try to be fine
They say it comes with time, so why am I wasting mine?
For something I'll never find

Chasing every high since I've been feeling low
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals
I think I'm headed for an overdose
I don't want to believe it, I don't want to feel this
Chasing every high since I've been feeling low (feeling low)
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals (some better chemicals)
So I don't have to feel a single pain at all (nothing at all)
Cause I think I might be headed for an overdose

I wish that I could tell you that I'm ok, but I'm not
I'm smiling, but its just out of habit, I can't stop
A hit of dopamine is all I need to finally get some sleep
Even serotonin on its own can't save me from my dreams
I don't want to believe it
I don't want to feel this
Fuck!

Chasing every high since I've been feeling low
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals
I think I'm headed for an overdose
I don't want to believe it, I don't want to feel this (I don't want to feel this)
Chasing every high since I've been feeling low (feeling low)
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals (I need better chemicals)
So I don't have to feel a single pain at all (I don't want to feel)
Cause I think I might be headed for an overdose (Yeah)
Chasing every high since I've been feeling low (chasing a high)
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals
So I don't have to feel a single pain at all (so I feel nothing at all)
Cause I think I might be headed for an overdose
Chasing every high since I've been feeling low
Hoping my head would conjure up some better chemicals
I think I'm headed for an overdose