"A Hard Pill To Swallow" lyrics

I spent the better half of the past two years
Shut down, thinking about, how did I get here?
My whole world felt like it got cold and insincere
I was desperate for a change of heart but none came near

So I stayed away from happiness, oh I steered clear
I saw things inside my rear view that kept making me veer

And I was mighty hard on myself
Was at odds with myself
Didn't wanna believe
So I kept running out on myself
Couldn't count on myself
Didn't know who to be

They sold you a dream
But it's not what it seems
And now you're lost in the cut
Knees muddy cuz you dug too deep
And it's hard to let go
Cuz you suffered the blow
And you're all bruised up
It's a hard pill to swallow
It's a hard pill to swallow
When you're caught in the sorrow
And you can't see tomorrow

I spent the better half of a brand new year
Coming around, thinking bout, how do I not fear
All the things that used to hold me back from living my life?
I had to tear it down to find out how to build it back right

And I paid the cost for it
Dug a hole so deep I swear I could have put my coffin in
Saw my future flash before my eyes
That's when I thought of it
Maybe if I take this chance to understand my part in it
I'd get down to the heart of it

Cuz I was mighty hard on myself
Was at odds with myself
Didn't wanna believe
So I quit running out on myself
Learned to count on myself
And I feel more at ease

They sold you a dream
But it's not what it seems
And now you're lost in the cut
Knees muddy cuz you dug too deep
And it's hard to let go
Cuz you suffered the blow
And you're all bruised up
It's a hard pill to swallow
It's a hard pill to swallow
When you're caught in the sorrow
And you can't see tomorrow
It's a hard pill to swallow

If you could do it over
You could do it over
Would you do it over again?
Cuz you can do it over
You can do it over
You can do it over again

If you could do it over
You could do it over
Would you do it over again?
Cuz you can do it over
You can do it over
You can do it over again

They sold you a dream
But it's not what it seems
And now you're lost in the cut
Knees muddy cuz you dug too deep
And it's hard to let go
Cuz you suffered the blow
And you're all bruised up
It's a hard pill to swallow
It's a hard pill to swallow
When you're caught in the sorrow
And you can't see tomorrow
It's a hard pill to swallow

If you could do it over
You could do it over
Would you do it over again?