"Babylon Ben (2016)" lyrics

I'll tell you "I'm okay
With the weather like my mood
The clouds are the same grey
As the smoke that fills this room
That I breathe in to forget
The pills that made me a disaster
To free my mind of regret
To convince myself I'll get better

I wished harm on my head
I wanna feel what you felt
I lay high in my bed
With the cards I was dealt
But I'd rather hurt in truth
Than be drifting off in fiction
I wrote these words to get me through
And convince myself I'll get better

I don't want these thoughts prescribed to me
I won't just be fixed to self deceive
I don't want these thoughts prescribed to me
I won't just be fixed to self deceive

How can I fix what I can't touch
It's cold and unfair but life is such
How can I cope with what's not there?
It leaves me rewired but not repaired

I don't want these thoughts prescribed to me
I won't just be fixed to self deceive
I don't want these thoughts prescribed to me
I won't just be fixed to self deceive
I don't want these thoughts prescribed to me
I won't just be fixed to self deceive