"I Don't Wanna Be Angry" lyrics

I don't wanna be angry
What has anger ever helped
Just want to know that you're with me
Don't care if I die with words unsaid
But now I'm beating my soles to the pavement
Like the tarmac's done me wrong
Just wanna find a perfect placement
Of my voice within your song

When I step onto that ferry
And the man demands his pay
I'll say everything was temporary
All the joy and all the pain

Didn't want to be emotional
Does that make me a coward?
Harsh white noise carving through my skull
Sitting motionless for hours
These worries won't save my fate
Cause none of it is real
Just mental games I choose to play
Tryna control how I feel

When I step onto that ferry
And the man demands his pay
I'll say everything was temporary
All the joy and all the pain
But 'til finally my body
Is floating down the Styx
I'll have to try and find peace of mind
In feeling all of this

Feel planets above us swirl
Atoms spin a Catherine wheel
This is all we really have
And that ain't such a bad deal
Knowing me, knowing you
With no abstraction
Love ain't just a feeling
Love's an action

When I step onto that ferry
And the man demands his pay
I'll say everything was temporary
All the joy and all the pain
But 'til finally my body
Is floating down the Styx
I'll have to try and find peace of mind
In feeling all of this