"I Wanna Feel Calm" lyrics

I try not to let my trauma do the talking
But from time to time the Ts add up
And I can see in your eyes
That I can be exhausting
And I'm not sure what forgiveness even does

But I try and I try
Day on day on day on day
Reaching to a light that's flickering
Headaches permeate
And I try and I try
Day on day on day on day
Seeking stillness in a rippling
Retrace all the ways

(You keep me calm)
I see visions of violet
(You keep me calm)
And it all goes quiet
(You keep me calm)
When my brain is abstracted
My bones are compacted
We can forget all about it

I want to cherish every insignificance
Lay in the light of your mundane
I want to hold onto every impermanence
Each an eternity in their own way

But I try and I try
Day on day on day on day
Reaching to a light that's flickering
Headaches permeate
And I try and I try
Day on day on day on day
Seeking stillness in a rippling
Retrace all the ways

(You keep me calm)
I see visions of violet
(You keep me calm)
And it all goes quiet
(You keep me calm)
When my brain is abstracted
My bones are compacted
We can forget all about it

But as July washes over
My heart beats a bossa nova
Been overwhelmed for like a year now
Feel my defenses lower
My mind sleeps on a sofa
Dreams of drifting maybe too far
I wanna love it all the time
Bathe in the glory of each moment
I wanna feel like I'm gonna die any second
I wanna feel like I'm gonna die any second
I wanna feel like I'm gonna die any second
I wanna feel calm
Forget all about it

(You keep me calm)
I see visions of violet
(You keep me calm)
And it all goes quiet
(You keep me calm)
When my brain is abstracted
My bones are compacted
We can forget all about it

(You keep me calm)
(I want to cherish every insignificance)
I see visions of violet
(You keep me calm)
(I want to cherish every insignificance)
And it all goes quiet
(You keep me calm)
(I want to cherish every insignificance)
When my brain is abstracted
My bones are compacted
(I want to cherish every insignificance)
We can forget all about it

I want to cherish every insignificance