"Real Lapse" lyrics

Rap heavyweight, I'm talking sumo
But the shit done broke my heart, I'm talking Takotsubo
No pseudo, heard the name but I'm not the one
I know judo
You don't know if I got a gun
Big steppa, big 40 on my hip flexor
My need for revenge is like a sick pleasure
Just on a pill and tryna numb the feeling
So I pop another pill and chop another melon
Fuck a hero I got zero feelings in my cerebellum
I lived long enough to see myself become the villain
Feel like 'Ye at the VMAs, this shit in my DNA
I got a lot of shit that I need to say
So why the fuck I always hold it in?
Walls closing in, ah shit, here we go again
I'm feeling trapped like my origin
Let me get a Hennessy or a gin

Lying to myself, avoiding real facts
I been on this track runnin' real laps
I know you feel that
I know you feel that
Anxiety kicking in, I can't relax
I been on this track running real laps
I know you feel that
It hit my system, I know I feel that

I know what these bitches do
Success is really misconstrued
No class, yo ass must have graduated from a different school
I get it really, shit is cool
I ain't even trippin', I'm just slippin' through
The cracks in the floor of my living room
Dancing to a different tune, driving in a different lane
I was round for you but you switched and now this shit just changed
Picture this, you couldn't even fit me in the picture frame
I'm sick of this, most your favorite idols is the biggest lames
Twenty years, never sold a ticket for the biggest stage
But I become the biggest villain if I ever get enraged
I used to pray for different days
The IRS came for me like my name was Nicolas Cage
That's the reason why my book is missing pages

I guess we'll see in the end
Although I love it, I'ma leave it again
I don't trust it, I'm like fuck it, dawg, why even pretend?
Being honest, I promise you never see me again
The end

Lying to myself avoiding real facts
I been on this track running real laps
I know you feel that
I know you feel that
Anxiety kicking in, I can't relax
I been on this track running real laps
I know you feel that
It hit my system, I know I feel that