"Pulse" lyrics

It's piling up, then crashing down above my head
Oh what a mess I am when I can't figure where I'm at
And I welcome the familiar weight around my fighting heart
A steady companion to myself when I sleep in the dark
It's like there's something in the air

And I wish nobody should live like me
This is an unfulfilling life
I seek to turn it all around
'Cause every day I hit the ground
And I wish somebody would set me free
But in the end I know that it's on me
My head is going numb
I'm on the edge, what else will come?

I roll around, I lay face down and I'm going mad
Oh what a mess, I try not to move, now I'm feeling trapped
This night is only half way gone and I don't belong in here
I'm walking on these street under black lights to get my conscience clear
It's like there's something in the air

And I wish nobody should live like me
This is an unfulfilling life
I seek to turn it all around
'Cause every day I hit the ground
And I wish somebody would set me free
But in the end I know that it's on me
My head is going numb
I'm on the edge, what else will come?

Solitude spreads within as the world lays down
The contentment I seek, so distant, so far gone
It's a neverending nightmare of not being in control
Let me go, free my soul
Yeah it's a neverending nightmare, I am losing the control
I'm feeling numb inside my body and nobody can relate

And I wish nobody should live like me
This is an unfulfilling life
I seek to turn it all around
'Cause every day I hit the ground

Cold and hot at the same time
I can feel my pulse on a thin line
My blood is rushing through my head
Every time I sink to bed