"I'm Not OK" lyrics

My last smile was a while ago
I can show you my fears and how wild I go
I got tattoo tears on my mind I know
That they're really my favorite
Everything's changing
Nothing stays the same, but the heart break
Hole in my chest
Can't see it but it's heart-shaped baby
Pour pain in a champagne glass
Seat belt for my feelings
Cause I know it won't last with you

I'm not ok
Excuse the screaming, I just thought you needed to know
I'm not ok
Don't you worry, I've got everything in control
I'm not ok
I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect
And that's ok
I'm hurting, and finally got the nerve to say
I'm not ok

Ten miles down a winding road
Tin-roof raindrops that remind me of you
Fourteen karat solid gold teardrops in my coffee
Look at what you cost me
And I would leave it all in a heartbeat
Found the lighter that you left in the car seat
Yeah yeah
I'mma set fire to the whole thing
But it wouldn't do much cause I won't be over you

I'm not ok
Excuse the screaming, I just thought you needed to know
I'm not ok
Don't you worry, I've got everything in control
I'm not ok
I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect
And that's ok
I'm hurting, and finally got the nerve to say

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm not ok
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm not o...
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm not ok

I'm not ok
Excuse the screaming, I just thought you needed to know
I'm not ok
Don't you worry, I've got everything in control
I'm not ok
I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect
And that's ok
I'm hurting, and finally got the nerve to say