"So I" lyrics

Always on my mind
Every day, every night
Your star burns so bright
Why did I push you away?
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry
So I cry

Wish I'd tried to pull you closer
You pushed me hard made me focus
Your words, brutal, loving, truthful
I was petrified
You're a hero and a human
Track was done I'd make excuses
You'd say, "Come on, stay for dinner"
I'd say, "No, I'm fine"
Now I really wish I'd stayed

Always on my mind
Every day, every night
Your star burns so bright
Why did I push you away?
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry
So I cry

Guilty feelings keep me fractured
Got a phone call after Christmas
Didn't know how I should act
I watched you dance online
Your sounds, your words live on endless
When I make songs I remember
Things you'd suggest - "Make it faster!"
Would you like this one?
Maybe just a little bit

Always on my mind
Every day, every night
Your star burns so bright
Why did I push you away?
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I'm on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, "It's okay to cry"
So I know I can cry, I can cry
So I cry