"Bread And Circus" lyrics

I'm looking on the bright side with clenched teeth
I'm holding onto hope, but be warned, there is blood underneath
Every one of my fingernails turning black from the dirt I caught up as well
Can you see when I'm smiling? My chest won't move, I'm not breathing (I'm not breathing)

Gotta be clever enough, they all call your bluff
They don't see you run when you come undone
Gotta be clever enough
You think you're clever enough?
You lied so well that you convinced yourself
Do yourself a disservice if you do not
Run, run

Searching silver linings and I can't eat
We're all tired of trying, but there's violence in apathy
And I can feel my body aging, the starting line breakdown of a fine thing
Feeling is a fleeting excursion when you live long enough to heal hurt
My back gave out on me
I'm lying on the bathroom floor, laughing up at the ceiling (Up at the ceiling)

Gotta be clever enough, they all call your bluff
They don't see you run when you come undone
Gotta be clever enough
You think you're clever enough?
You lied so well that you convinced yourself
Do yourself a disservice if you do not
Run, run
Run, run

You want it bad, so you lick the glass, the TV static feels good on
Your fingertips, you're just a kid, the moving picture is sinister
The train moves towards the camera, you're not alive yet, still your role is set
Perform for us, because you must
The bread is here, and you've always been the circus, dear
You'll always be the circus, dear

Run, run
Run, run

You want it bad, so you lick the glass, the TV static feels good on
Your fingertips, you're just a kid, the moving picture is sinister
The train moves towards the camera, you're not alive yet, still your role is set
Perform for us, because you must
The bread is here, and you've always been the circus, dear
You'll always be the circus, dear