"STIMMING" lyrics

Since a youngin', I been fidgetin' with my toys
Twistin', flippin' shit, how I figured out that I liked noise
Knew I loved the racket while questioning if I liked boys
Now causin' commotion, pay bills, and then bring me my joy

Oh boy
They had a feeling I'd be a handful
Rather be defiant than label me as a damn fool
I was a pariah before I ever got cancelled
But problems are like doorknobs, most of them get handled

If young me could see me she'd ask if we'd been on TV
Did we ever get our big break
Did we get a show on Disney?
I'd say baby we met Raven, we both think that girls are pretty
We made friends with that one rapper, the experience was shitty
Your big brother's Stevie Wonder and you live in the big city
You grew into your big head and your big mouth and your big titties
If you ask me for advice on your first project don't say diddy
Keep your head up in the clouds, most of all never stop stimmin'

Drip drop
Ink from your pen done stained up the hallway
Shit splotch
Like to know when you scraped that shit off babe
Tick tock
Nothin' but time and it ain't the wrong way
Flip every table
Fuck being stable

Please
If they hate your heart then you just hit em with the
Steez
Don't know what they want but you know what these niggas
Need
Remember you was trackin' in your closet
If your mouth gon' write a check
Then you gon' love every deposit

I get a lot of kids that are in headstart programs that, they're angry, they're aggressive, they're oppositional defiant, and God forbid if they're a little bit larger. Yes. So that's even another added piece to it and they don't see there's something really going on here, they're not comprehending, they're not understanding, they just see big black and aggressive

'Scuse me teacher, I'm so sorry, I'm paying attention
My momma gon' be mad if you send me to detention
Damn I stay in trouble will I ever learn my lesson?
Sinnin', I'm forgiven when I take it to confession

Try to understand it, just a chick with no connections
Black kids just some bad kids we don't never get no respite
Think it's underhanded, reprimanded with aggression
Wonder why the studies show we end up with depression

Disruptive attention got deficits my dysfunction is definite
My main muscle need medicine when I'm locked in this heaven-sent
I'm a scrappy lil scholar
My messy book bag and locker
A hidden piece of the puzzle, reflection of how I'm walkin'
Through life with different trainers
Sculptin' with tools of a painter
My Michaelangelo 2D
My Mona Lisa got angles
I tend to scare off the demons, my shoulder's porch to an angel
My neural love a divergence, I ain't in no need of a savior

Drip drop
Ink from your pen done stained up the hallway
Shit splotch
Like to know when you scraped that shit off babe
Tick tock
Nothin but time and it ain't the wrong way
Flip every table
Fuck being stable

Please
If they hate your heart then you just hit em with the
Steez
Don't know what they want but you know what these niggas
Need
Remember you was trackin in your closet
If your mouth gon' write a check
Then you gon' love every deposit