"Lullaby" lyrics

Everytime I've had no help with no one by my side
Tell myself it's alright I just have to fucking try
Wipe away my tears that's pouring and put on a smile
When my heart is broken and my mind is full of pride

Everytime I've felt like I just wanna close my eyes
Tell myself it's alright if I ever fucking cry
Do it in the silence with nobody by my side
In the dark you'll find me, sing a little lullaby

And its upsetting
All the darkness that was brought that I just let in
Had to rip myself apart just to get within
No one ever hears the thoughts that I let get in
Had to fall, and it's hard, when they don't listen at all
And it's hard to be normal with a mission at heart
And it's hard to see the road, cuz of the mist and fog
When you surrounded by the people with no vision at all
Look into my eyes but you don't see the pain
Look into the sky, but you don't see the rain
Look into my heart, you will never see the same
Look into my scars, you will never be the same
Traumatizing, all the darkness rising
There will never be no one like me
Went through fire, went through dead and tired
Went through all and all to try to find me
Look into my eyes but you don't see the pain
Look into the sky, but you don't see the rain
Look into my heart, you will never see the same
Look into my scars, you will never be the same
Look into it you will never get it
I went through it, you just never did it
You don't get the message, you don't feel it
You don't learn the lesson, cuz you never lived it

Everytime I've had no help with no one by my side
Tell myself it's alright I just have to fucking try
Wipe away my tears that's pouring and put on a smile
When my heart is broken and my mind is full of pride

Everytime I've felt like I just wanna close my eyes
Tell myself it's alright if I ever fucking cry
Do it in the silence with nobody by my side
In the dark you'll find me, sing a little lullaby