Citizen Soldier - If I Surrender Lyrics

Citizen Soldier Lyrics

"If I Surrender"

Lately I've been feeling so ashamed
By these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain
'Cause I've been holding them down but they twist me violently (-ly, -ly)
I'm hanging by a thread tonight but this time I don't wanna be saved (Saved)

So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
Will it set me free?

What's the point of holding on like this?
When no one seems to care if I exist
There is no agony like being strong when no one knows you're sick
So sick of hearing I should stay when I know I would never be missed

So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me

If you could see under my skin
You'd realize why I hold it in
Why it's a fight I don't wanna win
Why it's a fight I don't wanna win
If you could see all my abuse
And spent a day inside my shoes
You'd realize why I just wanna lose
You'd realize why I just wanna lose
Will anyone believe the hell of being me
Before I decide to be the dying proof?

So let me fall, let me break
Under everything unsaid
Just let me die 'cause I can't take
Living with what's in my head
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
If I surrender, surrender
To the monsters in me
Will it set me free?

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Thanks to Jamie Fuchs, Rapture, Albin Fagerlund, Ary for correcting these lyrics.

Writer(s): Jacob Ezra Segura, Kyle Matthew Persell

Singer Jake Segura told on Instagram about "If I Surrender", "I wanted to take a more empathy-driven approach to talking about suicidal thoughts. People don't want to be preached to about why their thinking is flawed. That does nothing but make people feel more isolated. Sometimes they want someone to understand what it's like to sit with those thoughts for too long, so that's what I attempted to validate with this one."

album: "This Is Your Sign Part I" (2021)

Citizen Soldier - This Is Your Sign Part I album cover

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