"Trying" lyrics

I've broken every bone inside my body
Trying to fit the mold of how you want me
Your expectations are a prison cell
I don't exist to you when I am okay
You only see me when I'm ready to break
If I don't leave, I'm gonna hate myself

I wear the scars of every word you tell me
'Cause I'm invisible unless I'm failing
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying
If you could see my pain, just half as clearly
As my mistakes then you would be so sorry
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying

Shifted to every shape, attempted millions
These days I feel less human than chameleon
To make you happy, gladly sold myself
I've chased your fantasy and I'm done waiting
My own identity ain't far from fading
Reaching your heaven's gonna be my hell

I wear the scars of every word you tell me
'Cause I'm invisible unless I'm failing
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying
If you could see my pain, just half as clearly
As my mistakes then you would be so sorry
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying

What if there's nothing wrong with me
And you're just masking misery?
A frightening child afraid of help
The scapegoat's me to save yourself
What if the problem's not my worth?
It's what you think that you deserve
Projecting and conditioning
But what if I stop listening?

I wear the scars of every word you tell me
'Cause I'm invisible unless I'm failing
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying
If you could see my pain, just half as clearly
As my mistakes then you would be so sorry
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying

I am trying
I am trying
Don't know why you go blind
Every time I am trying, I am trying