"hiding in the bathroom" lyrics

Heads in the clouds
There's no coming down
Don't wanna be sober
I don't wanna be drunk
I can't wait to be over this

Someday I'll look back and laugh
But not right now

Here I go
Hiding in the bathroom, talking to the walls
Writings in the cubicles say I'm unlovable
Hiding in the bathroom, I count to ten
Wondering if I'll ever like me again
I'll be hiding here till then

Everyone's laughing and I start to go numb
It's a constant conundrum I can't seem to solve
I'm staring at the patterns on the carpet
Dancing with my thoughts
It feels so wrong to be here, I feel like a fraud
I'm overstimulated, I don't know what to say next

All I could think of now is that
I should've just stayed home with my dog

Here I go
Hiding in the bathroom, talking to the walls
Writings in the cubicles say I'm unlovable
Hiding here alone thinking, "I have no friends."
Wondering if they'll ever like me again
I'll be hiding here till then

Don't go looking for me
I'm planning my escape, consider me gone
Nothing you'll ever say will convince me to stay
I'm already gone, consider me gone

Here I go
Hiding in the bathroom, talking to the walls
I look in the mirror and see someone I don't know
What is it with bathrooms? It's all in my head
Wondering if I'll ever like me again

I'll be hiding here till then
Carefully counting up to ten