"Paradox" lyrics

How can I love myself
When I'm my own worst enemy?
How can I ask for help
From someone who keeps letting me—

I'm falling, running out of options
Need solace but everything is toxic
It's hard to believe there's fixing me
When starry eyed is something I'll never be
They say give it up and cut my losses
But talk's cheap when you don't know what the cost is
They say wishing well always sets you free
But this paradox has got a hold on me

So how can I love myself
When I'm my own worst enemy?
How can I ask for help
From someone who keeps letting me
Down when I need it the most?
Who's counting me out, waiting for me to choke?
Why do I love this hell?
This paradox inside of me

Inside my head is so chaotic
This is never what I wanted
But I can't seem to save this other part of me
Never happy 'cause I'm so neurotic
And there's nothing I can do so
How am I supposed to be who I need to be
When I can't even breathe?
Now I can't breathe

So how can I love myself
When I'm my own worst enemy?
How can I ask for help
From someone who keeps letting me
Down when I need it the most?
Who's counting me out, waiting for me to choke?
Why do I love this hell?
This paradox inside of me

How can I love myself
When I'm my own worst enemy?
How can I ask for help
From someone who keeps letting me—

So how can I love myself
When I'm my own worst enemy?
How can I ask for help
From someone who keeps letting me
Down when I need it the most?
Who's counting me out, waiting for me to choke?
Why do I love this hell?
This paradox inside of me