"Heavy Heart" lyrics

I told myself I liked being alone but I lied
Now I'm across the world trying to find out why
Not sure I'll find the cure but I need to try
Or watch myself die
I told my parents I was leaving to get help
Before I burn all the love in my family house
I always take the easy way out
But I'm not giving into doubt

I've got a heavy heart
But I want to make it light
But I want to make it light
My dark pushes and pulls
But I swear that I'll still fight
When the world and I collide

I said I liked being alone but I lied to myself
'Cause it scares me more than anything else
I've been thinking about nothing but myself
Forgot to love anyone else
How could I blame you for finding someone else?
'Cause I know I haven't been myself
And I think I need to get some help
But I want to keep this hell to myself

I've got a heavy heart
But I want to make it light
But I want to make it light
My dark pushes and pulls
But I swear that I'll still fight
When the world and I collide

I've got a heavy heart
My dark pushes and pulls
But I swear that I'll still fight
When the world and I collide

I've got a heavy heart
But I want to make it light
But I want to make it light
My dark pushes and pulls
But I swear that I'll still fight
When the world and I collide

I've got a heavy heart
But I want to make it light
But I want to make it light
My dark pushes and pulls
But I swear that I'll still fight
When the world and I collide