"Crow" lyrics

Return to sender
I won't surrender to my hell
Chasin' the ghost of
Tired of pretending, oh well
I turned in my program
I put the curse on myself
How could they go away
Everything's [?] since then
Everything's [?] since then
Everything's [?] since then
Like a crow in a cage
Who am I to behave myself?

Pull back the curtain
I expected to get it much worse than this
Looking for purpose
I put a bullet in my head
Talking in circles
Nobody listens anyway
Reading the words wrong
Nothing is spelt right anyway
Running the wheels off, okay
Tired of fetishizing pain
Breaking the window of my [?]
Everything feels wrong
Like a crow in the cage, who am I to behave myself
We design our own hell
Tried to shut up
Like a mime in the well, oh well