"a cold christmas" lyrics

I didn't really actually think I'd be here all alone
On Christmas eve I swear I thought I'd never be alone
My baby laying on a gurney in a hospital
The walls are white and sinking in just like the winter snow
Los Angeles has never felt so far away from home
It's crying out for help, can someone please just save its soul?
I don't know how to pray, I'll try to learn and play my role
I can't believe this year's so cold

It's gonna be a cold Christmas
It's gonna be a cold Christmas
It's gonna be a cold Christmas
It's gonna be a cold Christmas

I'm codependent like the wings on an angel
I fold easy when I care I get too close
I fell apart on a holiday in noho
And I'm just tryna make it through

But I'm faded, I'm faded
I fucked up, I'm wasted
We made it
I wish we could say that we made it
But I'm faded, I'm faded
I fucked up, I'm wasted
We made it
I wish we could say that we made it

It's gonna be a cold Christmas
It's gonna be a cold Christmas
It's gonna be a cold Christmas
It's gonna be a cold Christmas

Christmas lights got me drinking on december nights
Christmas lights got me thinking bout you and I
Wish I could warm you in my arms again and kiss you right
Wish I could warm you up inside
Oh yeah