"Slave 4 Life" lyrics

I was born in the city, it wasn't pretty dawg
My life fallin' through the crack that I'm smokin' on
Rationalizing everything that I knew was wrong
Sippin' sin 'til it baptized me, wrapping myself in these chains...
And I'll be gone in a minute

Sin called... I heard
Compromised my heart for a pile of dirt
One wrong, turned right...
A second later I can't even tell wrong from right
Top speed, downhill
A little anger turns quick into the thought to kill
A couple blunts, a couple pills
A couple lines, just to cover up how I feel
I'm wrong and I know it, but I can't even care no more
I'm just tryin' not to show it... wonderin' what I'm livin' for?
Stuck in between my faith and my demons, and I'm
Kickin' and screamin' just lookin' for meaning in life
Too proud to believe in a God I ain't seein'
Still I want it even though I'm...

A slave tonight, free in regard to right
Thinkin' I'm lovin' every minute
A slave for life, and I can't even see the light
But I'll be gone any minute

Forget the God-thing
If anything's raining down on me from heaven, it's a lot of pain
But in the end, I'll be wonderin' what it was I gained
From fillin' my life with the things of which I'm now ashamed
What if in the end I find I'm wrong
And I ain't got nothin' left?
When everything I loved is dead and gone
And the paycheck to my sin is death?
God you see what I've been through
And all this life that I've ruined
Where all these things that I don't want to do
Is what I find myself doin'
But I'm free! And I love it!
I've seen God and I want some more of it!
I'm still a slave... just a different master
But I've never worn chains that felt so free!

A slave tonight, free in regard to right
Thinkin' I'm lovin' every minute
A slave for life, and I can't even see the light
But I'll be gone any minute