"Emotional Damage" lyrics

Now and then, I get a glimpse of it
And I pretend I couldn't live with it
I'm on the mend
But I'm gonna tear myself apart again

I confess I wanna feel something
Inside my chest, instead of the sorrow
I've invited in
I wanna be happy, see the light again

But I'll never have it
I've made it a habit
A habit of chasing heights I'll never reach
But you don't notice me
Or how I've made it a habit
Emotional damage
I've made it a habit
Emotional damage

I wake up, full of love, with a smile on my face
Made that up, call my bluff, it's enough but it's fake
Chasing dreams but they feel like a nightmare at times
I'm the sad one, I can't let my happiness shine

I could've been happy
Could've been laughing, yeah
But the fact is I took a path
That didn't allow me
To be a man that could take a crack
Because if I crack
And I break character
Half of you
Wouldn't have had me as a martyr
To deliver the pain that I harbor
And it's killing me off
I wanna get away from it and depart it

But I'll never have it
I've made it a habit
A habit of chasing heights I'll never reach
But you don't notice me
Or how I've made it a habit
Emotional damage
I've made it a habit
Emotional damage