"comes and goes" lyrics

Calling outs hard thru a screen
Been in my room these past few weeks
I know that I'm still in the lead
But it's hard to feel like im seen

I just want some cash in my pocket
I had love but I lost it
Works got me exhausted
I would tell you how I feel but ur not here

It comes and goes
But I'll never know
If I'm really okay
I'm doing better on my own
I dont know where I wanna go

I dont wanna think anymore
I wanna be bored
Til my bones sink through the floor

I think im stuck in a dream
Been this way since 16
I hold myself to nothing
Keeping all guts in

Shadows cast on my skin
Hit the ground til I bleed
But I just keep on running
I just keep on running

Cut you all off but it wasn't enough
The burnouts still fucking me up
I still mask my shit tryna toughen me up
B4 they find me out gotta suck it up

I think im stuck in a dream
I'll never get to sleep
I lost all those memories
Of the whole world ending

It comes and goes
But I'll never know
If I'm really okay
I'm doing better on my own
I dont know where I wanna go

I dont wanna think anymore
I wanna be bored
Til my bones sink through the floor