"Life In Forward Motion" lyrics

I was coming off a relapse when they told me that you died
And I never did come visit
I thought we'd have more time
Well it weighs me down like granite
That I gave you some excuse
Sometimes I tend to panic
Don't wanna face the truth
I always kinda hoped for something more
But it's hard to see the light
When you're facedown on the floor

I know living should be easy but sometimes it feels a curse
There's a shadow hanging round me and it's slowly growing worse
'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse
I'm getting further from any meaning for what it's worth

Could I find a new perspective like I'm born with brand new eyes?
Does it need to take a death for me to be grateful I'm alive?
Time's never felt so fragile as I race towards the end
And waste the little breath I've got left, to make a promise to change again

I know living should be easy but sometimes it feels a curse
There's a shadow hanging round me and it's slowly growing worse
'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse
I'm getting further from any meaning for what it's worth

I know living should be easy but sometimes it feels a curse
There's a shadow hanging round me and it's slowly growing worse
'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse
I'm getting further from any meaning for what it's worth