"Tracing Lines" lyrics

I'm here again
Back in the house that I grew up in
I guess that nothings changed and I didn't learn anything
I'm feeling ashamed
I'm almost 35/divorced but it's kinda comforting, that I don't own anything

Packing up a decade of useless shit that had some meaning to me when I was younger
Now it's just an anchor around my neck that's always pulling down and making me wonder if I'm

Still tracing the same lines that always kept me under and I Can't face it but I'm here again back at my mothers
I've been pushing way too hard this time I broke right through the page to a new low, where did all the time go?

Can I still call it home?
If I've got a key that fits in the door but I never wanna go
It's a painful reminder of feeling alone
And I notice time won't heal all the things it should
I try to ignore the size of the hole in my chest hanging like an anchor around my neck that's always pulling down and making me wonder if I'm

Still tracing the same lines that always kept me under and I Can't face it but I'm here again back at my mothers
I've been pushing way too hard this time I broke right through the page to a new low
And I can't let go
Have I changed or am I still a kid who's terrified of monsters?
Am I wasting all the little things I thought I had to offer?

I've been chasing through my thoughts at night and wondering if I've always felt so low
And where did all the time go?