"3am And Sober" lyrics

I used to wait until the room was spinning slightly
Before I'd let myself think about you fully
Because sober meant I had to own all of it
And owning it was something I did poorly

But tonight I didn't pour a single glass
Just sat here with the quiet and the dark
And everything I've been avoiding came back clearly
Every single piece of every broken part

3am and sober and I'm still thinking of you
No fog to hide behind, just the truth coming through
Couldn't blame it on the alcohol, couldn't call it a mistake
3am and sober and I'm wide awake

This is the version of the feeling I've been running from
The one that has no excuse underneath it
Clear-eyed in the dark with nowhere left to hide
Just me and everything I need to either say or leave it

The neighborhood is quiet and the hours feel enormous
And I'm sitting with the clearest head I've had in weeks
Turns out I don't need the blur to feel this strongly
Turns out all the blur was doing was making me weak

3am and sober and it's still you on my mind
No excuse, no escape, just what I find
Couldn't call it the drink, couldn't call it the night
3am and sober and I'm finally right

Wide awake and clear
Wide awake and here
No more hiding in the haze
Wide awake and I've been thinking for days
That sober hurts more cleanly
And clean hurts more true
3am and sober
And it's still you

3am and sober and the truth won't let me sleep
No fog to hide behind, just the feelings running deep
Couldn't blame it on the alcohol, couldn't call it late
3am and sober, wide awake