"i heard from your friend" lyrics

I heard from your friend that you didn't feel loved by me
Babe, was that true?
I heard from your friend that you got a new man
I saw on your Instagram
And that really hurt my feelings
But you probably don't give a shit no more
See you standing there with your new man
It was only one month after you left
Did you not even mourn like I did?
Did you not even see a therapist?
Did you not need to take some time to catch your breath?
I don't believe a word that you said
All the lies that filled my head
And the notes you wrote on the fridge is dead

All I see is that face
It's in between the places where I used to find a smile, haven't seen one in a while
All I get are glances, awkward second chances from a man I used to be
He's reaching out to talk to me, but lately
I've been tryna decide if I was as happy as I thought that I was at the time
I think that I was in a rut, maybe felt a little stuck
After paying for the house and your dad's truck
And I've been tryna see if I'm the real me
Who did I become when I went off to Indy?
Life went quick when I was on my own
Life's too short to live it alone
Sad faces, all I see when I see those eyes staring back at me, yeah

And now it's time to make amends
Oh I paid the price, cut off my hands
Now I go to church and I'm making plans to see the light
When will it end?