"Chaotic" lyrics

Looked in his eyes, I saw a God
From the first night I knew he was dangerous
Arms out to hand him my love, it isn't worth it
He only loves drugs, yeah, I know
You're mine, I couldn't be the one to forget you
Don't let me go so easily, I won't let you
This evil show, you're crushing pills up in my bedroom
Its evil, so we'll dance for hours in a red room

Lovin' him is just a little bit chaotic
Rolled up dollars, blue dust in his pockets
I don't want another option
Lovin' him is just a little bit exhausting
Kissing me like he means it, but it's plastic
I don't care, I want it toxic and just a little chaotic

Don't wanna open my mouth, he's sitting right there
But somehow my words won't come out
Stay on his good side and pout, or risk the whole thing
His mood swings knock me to the ground
Don't lie, you know there's nothing I can do to change you
So save my time, you never wanted me to blame you
I'm lost, I'm blind
Suck the life out, I won't shame you
You know your crimes but you hold me
I'm your angel

Lovin' him is just a little bit chaotic
Rolled up dollars, blue dust in his pockets
I don't want another option
Lovin' him is just a little bit exhausting
Kissing me like he means it, but it's plastic
I don't care, I want it toxic and just a little chaotic

Lovin' him is just a little bit chaotic
Rolled up dollars, blue dust in his pockets
I don't want another option