"heartbreak 65" lyrics

I've cried rivers and ponds and then oceans
Mopped it up not to cause a commotion
When I'm naked, I look very lovely
Boys like wiping my tears before they touch me
I've used bodies in bed as a Band-Aid
Fucked like Barbie and I'm not offended
And if I could drink male validation
I'd go blind with the whole population

Uh, shit, uh, I just don't

I'm one with the voices in my head again
3:04 in my head again
Overthinking what was relevant
Overthinking what I didn't, didn't
Do right, do right, right back then
What I fucked up, where I've been
Who's been controlling my sins
Who is, who is, who is

Heartbreak 65
The kind of pain makes you wanna die
Do you bite the bullet or go screaming down the drain into the night?
The night

I've cried rivers and ponds and then oceans
Mopped it up not to cause a commotion
When I'm naked, I look very lovely
Boys like wiping my tears before they touch me
I've used bodies in bed as a Band-Aid
Fucked like Barbie and I'm not offended
And if I could drink male validation
I'd go blind with the whole population

I'm so scared of eighteen
And boys at twenty-nine
I'm scared that what they'll do to me
Is much less of a crime
I'm still the same sweet girl I've been
Plus one more day of time
I'm still a grown man's teenage dream
What will change is where they draw the line