"secrecy" lyrics

Baby, didn't I do it for ya?
Chasing dreams in quick euphoria
Ain't been healthy for me, love
Can't you see that I'm in a bad way?

You were my muse, my motivation
I needed something was worth wasting in
I guess that was you, love, I don't mean it
And you finally punched my ticket to hell

Say it wasn't fine

Table cloth and fishing rods and I think I'm flying
Were you lying
When you said I was okay? (Ah-ah-ah)
Sure I'm a pleaser, I'm a beggar
And I need you to hold me (ah-ah-ah)
Wishing for this evening out for years
And now you wanna destroy me?

And the core at odds
It converged into a drain
Would you love me if this went my way? (Shoo-doo-doo)
And I hope that you'll be running after me

And everybody sees it all the same
And your name's collecting dust inside my brain
But you promised me that you would never change
Bottles of Bacardi down the drain
And I'm moving through the crowd, like it's a maze
Seeing you and alcohol, it don't look great
But you gotta do a better job of secrecy