"get by" lyrics

Tell me, do you ever feel alone?
And I been getting stoned to get by
Nothing here is like the way it was
And I keep hearing voices when she's calling
Tell me right now when you stopped believing
Can I write a song to help your healing?
Nothing ever works when I get near it
I want you to know me but I fear it

I smelt like marijuana when I met your lovely ma back in the fall
And I'm not saying she don't like me
But I doubt she's giving reasons you should call
And if all I need to do is pack it up and get my shit together, I'm through
And if a change in me is happening, I don't want it to happen 'cause of you

What are you gonna think of me when I get lost at the bottom of your mercy?
Tell me, does it get tough?
'Cause I gotta get high when I talk to you
Do you get mad when you think about it?
Tell me, is it gonna cut deep?
And you could tell that I was falling on my side every time I tried to walk to you
And I don't know, Mr. Jones, if you know that I'm home
But I'm here and
I got a bone to pick, I'm on the phone, and you're gonna thank Jesus
I'm alone in this and I don't know if I could ever find peace with
And you're sticking with it, baby
But you're looking for a little bit of reason

I'm a bastard (I will never know what you're running from)
You're my only one (I will never know what you get it from)
It goes faster (I will never know what you're running from)
And that's just my luck (I will never know what you get it from)
When I'm lonely shit gets dangerous
And I don't think I am saving this