"song about overthinking" lyrics

I've been watching all the weeds grow through the cracks of the concrete
Been analyzing every conversation I had last week
And familiar faces fill the space in places that I dread to be
So I'm counting down the minutes on the clock till it's time to leave

I've been watching all my weekends drift away without a worry
Cause I'm too strung out to realize that tomorrow's Monday morning
And I'll spend every waking hour picking petals off dead flowers
Contemplating cleaning up the mess
Or not thinking about her

And I'll turn the lights off around midnight
And fall asleep to the sound of how it used to be
I don't remember what it was like
All I recall are faded scenes of fonder memories
And I, I wonder if you know that I've been waiting on you
But I, I don't think you'll show
And there's not much left to say or do

I've been waking up uneasy draining out all of my dopamine
And burning up my retinas reading too far into what folks think of me
And there's a hole inside my ego it gets filled up by fake people
Constant lying to my face I don't know why I still believe though

And I'll, I'll turn the lights off around midnight
And fall asleep to the sound of how it used to be
I don't remember what it was like
All I recall are faded scenes of fonder memories
And I, I wonder if you know that I've been waiting on you
But I, I don't think you'll show
And there's not much left to say or do