"hold" lyrics

I shouldn't have held onto her, I should've held it back
If you were angry at me you know you could've left
I'd understand it if I was only a misstep
I feel myself in denial, I feel myself in regret

I couldn't hold my breath

You know I went to your place just to stand outside
I thought I'd stop feeling sad if I could say goodbye
I saw my name in the paper, saw my face in the wall
If I was nothing to you, I wasn't nothing at all

I couldn't hold my breath

I wasn't meaning to bite my nails
Is something different? I guess that I don't care
I wasn't worried until you stared
So how could I go on if you're not here?