"Chaos" lyrics

When the world gets quiet, and everybody's dreaming
I stay up late, so I can finally hear myself think
When I'm far from home, I, I call God up on the telephone
I say

"Hey, there girl, I don't know what I'm doing
Think I've made a mess of my life, my soul is twisted up in ruins
I feel so alone"
And the silence feels like a dial tone

Some days, I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Drive around the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes, I'm a roller-coaster ride
I ride around the bend, and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now, I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos
The chaos

I'm over all the stories, the bullshit I enabled
I thought my life would look a little bit more stable
There's an earthquake in my mind
While the wildfires burn outside

Some days, I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Drive around the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes, I'm a roller-coaster ride
I ride around the bend, and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now, I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos
The chaos
The chaos
Oh, the chaos

I don't know what's become of me
I miss the Jersey girl I used to be

Some days, I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Drive around the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes, I'm a roller-coaster ride
I ride around the bend, and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now, I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos
The chaos
The chaos
Oh, the chaos

I close my eyes, I see my dreams are changing
I'm okay with it
I'm alright