"Benny's Farewell" lyrics

I dun seen a lot don't say too much that's what it did to me
First check for a flip phone and some land y'all nigga weird to me
Objects in the phone don't be as real as they appear to be
Peel a piece to build the peace
That height we reach be Bitter sweet
Nigga talking crazy why
Moco ain't goin let it slide
Watching Richie find his purpose making sure I'm still alive
FaceTime with my mamma can you see am I still inside
Paper cut to pieces boy I died at least a thousand times

Water ain't for drinking just washing blood off your jersey
My favorite place to sleep is with bitches who don't deserve me
I think I got a thing for them making me prove I'm worth it
Don't tell me you really love me just tell me it won't get murky
Treat these verses like my therapy
Treat these urges like I'm uh
Still been searching for that version of myself to be okay
And I'm him
And I'm on 10
It ain't no trends to get no wins
I lost some friends to get these ends
But I repent
I think I did too much

I want the top spot dreamin in this bih
All that cap bitch I'm a shark I'm Willie Beamen in this bih
And Heaven is a spot can we go see while we here?
Need it while we here
Need it while ya here
You say ya care for me care for me
I thought that you be there for me there for me
I thought you say ya care for me care for me
I thought that you be there for me
Care for me

Where you coming from
Where you running
I'm from where you stand for something not for nothing
I remember I was what I wanted as a kid
It was mid in them blunts
Baby lungs how he swim with a shark
Drunk as hell
High as heaven
Lord forgive me for my sins
At my best they show love
At my worst they throw stones
Got questions
It's the answers what be taking them so long
Got homies that ah never hear this song
Got people that ah never see my face
I know people who ah never do me wrong
I know Heaven just as close to where you stay
Know your enemy is close so hear me out
It's a penalty they holding me my rout

Impossible the Mission was insane
The difference is I never gave a fuck
The sentiment forever is the same
The medicine for pain
What happens if you never knew your way
I hope you never see the day

Every time I fell I got the fuck up
That's on me and shit
I do this for me and all my dawgs
Cus we done seen some shit
Some I still ain't speaking with
Love still in my heart I'm just at peace with shit
I plead the fiff

I don't have no time to sort out grievances
Sometimes know
I need to vent
I don't feel the same no more
Can't call how my weeks is spent
On autopilot
Allah take the wheel please
I can't drive long
She say she sick and tired me making all sad songs
I can't embellish baby
These are my confessions baby
Pack we let it burn in the room with out the discretion baby
I don't need direction baby
I been out here stepping lately
Tryna be the one, ain't know room for 2nd guessing baby
Need that
Out this bitch still running laps
I can't relax
Lost my mind I'll get it back
This my rehab
Nothing holding me back
Fake love please keep that
Way over there don't need that

I want the top spot dreamin in this bih
All that cap bitch I'm a shark I'm Willie Beamen in this bih
And Heaven is a spot can we go see while we here?
Need it while we here
Need it while ya here
You say ya care for me care for me
I thought that you be there for me there for me
I thought you say ya care for me care for me
I thought that you be there for me
Care for me