"Anti Hero" lyrics

(But have you ever thought
What if this is all just a dream)

They made me out to be insane
Yeah, maybe I'm losing the plot
Maybe you're losing your head French
Ever since I can tell you've been healing a lot
What the fuck do you think
I've been sitting here crying to my friends all day
With a dummy in my mouth and a bottle full of pain
Tears in my eyes just rolling down my face

Nah, it weren't that sweet
It was more like sitting on my bathroom floor
With a bottle full of pills and a mind full of thoughts
And had the tap running so they couldn't hear more of me falling to my knees
Fuck who's that knocking at the door put a smile on quick
Then run downstairs and pretend that I never even felt this before
But this shit runs deep

When my bro needed help he'd call me
When he was in a bad way he'd call me
When he was beefing a man he'd call me
When he wouldn't tell no one and needed me there
I was young but he'd always call me
Who'd would pick up the phone it was me
Who would go there alone it was me

I can't even speak
Can't even breathe and just a few days later
I was back on stage spitting the same ass lyrics bout Jed and his ways
I guess I thought he'd come back to a familiar face
Like what the fuck do I do with myself
All this pain ain't got nothing to do with my wealth
Like what the fuck do I do with myself
I swig a bottle down it ain't good for my health

Can you explain to me all the people in my DM's
After bro died asking for favors
I thought I found God there I was down on my ass
But I can't seem to read all the pages
I've never been Batman I'm the Joker
I don't think you really know what insane is
I was fine on my own and I thrive all alone
I ain't even fitting in with a famous death to the traitors

(Have you gone
I need to know
Where have you gone
Are you coming home
Where have you gone
I need to know
Where have you gone
Are you coming home)