"Disintegrate" lyrics

Thought I found my place
But why am I still trying?
Thought I set things straight
But I'm out here dying

I believed in faith
I got disappointed
Believe there is my strength
But I won't pull up the weight

I'm slowly losing grip
With every absent step
I don't give in, but I resist

Why does all my will disintegrate?
Why is everything I see so bleak?
I can barely move, don't know what to do
I ain't healing from now

I just disintegrate
In my head
Disintegrate
In my head

Being like you shouldn't stay here
You're just an impostor, a misfit, please disappear
Crying out your stories for so many years
Do you want the pity? Do you need the tears?
You're just a dirty plague
Another hopeless case
So easy to replace
You're just a waste of space
Waving in your own grief
No one wants you to speak
Stuck in your false belief, you're better off

Why does all my will disintegrate?
Why is everything I see so bleak?
I can barely move, don't know what to do
I ain't healing from now (I keep asking)
Why does all my will disintegrate? (Disintegrate)
Why is everything I see so bleak? (I see so bleak)
I can barely move, don't know what to do
I ain't healing from now

I just disintegrate
In my head
Disintegrate
In my head