"Uncontrolled" lyrics

I'm in a place between this earth and hell (Earth and hell)
I'm not quite alright if you can tell (You can tell)

This battle with these shadows in my head
An endless fight and never ending dread
Right now I only see what I can't attain
No focus and a bunch of mistakes

A state I'm too used living in
Nothing's new, I still don't win
Please end this quickly, quickly, quickly

I don't feel safe
In this place I'm in, I can feel that I can't change
'Cause I, I have lost control
I have lost control
Again and again
Work it out

A lack of hope and no self-discipline
Imprisoned and no serotonin
Such a wrack that's been stuck in this place
So many things that I'd wish to embrace

A state I'm too used living in
Nothing's new, I still don't win
And it's killing me slowly, slowly, slowly

I don't feel safe
In this place I'm in I can feel that I can't change
'Cause I, oh I have to stay
For the ones I love and all I strive for
I don't wanna lose control again

I have lost control again and again
I'm breaking down

Head straight through a wall
Looking for a cure
Fuck, I don't wanna do this anymore
Could please just shut up
Shut up
Everything shatters
Nothing matters anymore

I don't feel safe
In this place I'm in I can feel that I can't change
'Cause I, oh I have to stay
For the ones I love and all I strive for
I, I have lost control
I have lost control again
And again and again and again