"body and mind" lyrics

I've been in the deep end since I realized
There is a difference between body and mind
I've been at my lowest for the longest time
Knowing my existence is not one of a kind

But I've had my deepest cries for now
My heart's out
My guard's down
Yeah, I've had my deepest cries for now
My heart's out
My guard's down

I've been seeking solace in the strangest of things
Getting my hands dirty while I beat out the kinks
I've been chasing everything that makes me feel cold
Practicing self love is something I don't really know
So I suppose

I cannot live like this no more
Filling a lifetime with remorse
I'm closing up the void

But I've had my deepest cries for now
My heart's out
My guard's down
Yeah, I've had my deepest cries for now
My heart's out
My guard's down

Been in the deep end since I realized
There is a difference between body and mind
If I could make it go quiet inside
Get some rest for my weary eyes
Tonight, I'm giving my all for a remedy
Grant myself serenity
But if I don't leave it all behind

But I've had my deepest cries for now
My heart's out
My guard's down
Yeah, I've had my deepest cries for now
My heart's out
My guard's down