"Pedestal" lyrics

Where the hell have you been?
Every day I worried
Are you gonna be the same again?
I built your pedestal so high
Cause you never hurt me
And here we are now after all this time

I'm so disappointed
I missed your voice but I can't avoid that
I just don't want you being someone new
You've got me so conflicted
My love is lost but I'm still addicted
Is this really what you wanna do?

I fucking hate how much I love you
You know you're better than this
I fucking hate how much I love you
Aren't you better than this?
Aren't you better than this?

Were you always full of doubt?
You're the one I looked up to
And I can see the way you're selling out
You say you're growing with the times
But I grew up with you
And something died inside of who I knew

I'm so disappointed
I missed your voice but I can't avoid that
I just don't want you being someone new
You've got me so conflicted
My love is lost but I'm still addicted
Is this really what you wanna do?

I fucking hate how much I love you
You know you're better than this

I'm watching you erase yourself
The best way to cope is not to care
You're sounding like you're someone else
The best way to cope is not to care
Why do I spend my thoughts on something I can't change?
The best way to cope is not to care
Cause I know you don't want to be saved
The best way to cope is not to care